dare to dream.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

acwl

Hey love.
I didn't get a chance to see you today and yeah, I miss you a lot.
Trying hard to not to think about how my life would be like after you graduate.
I guess I'd really look forward to the weekends then.
Although I would only be seeing you for a few hours during church but it would be well worth it!

Just wanted you to know that you're the most awesome guy I've ever loved and I feel so blessed to be called your girlfriend.
HONEST!
I really feel like such a loser(in a good way) when I'm with you.
It's like you're too good for me and I don't even deserve to be with you :|
Anyways, I hope this post makes you go all soft and sappy inside.
:D
I love you, mr. candyman!
Thank you for showering me with all your sweetness and never ending love.

God bless!

love,
zoe (:

p/s: Abi, have I ever told you how good of a friend you are? Well, you're an amazing friend and I'm so bloody lucky to have met someone like you. Gosh, even my mom likes you and your mom! LOL. *hugs Abi tightly*

Monday, March 22, 2010

stupidity

I wrote my 2010 wish list last night and I realized how empty and lifeless my life is. Jumping from one person to another seems like a norm for me now. I find that I get upset over the littlest things in my life (e.g. -look at my tag box and go figure) and I constantly wonder why people in my life are always leaving. Maybe it's just me and my over-worked brain or maybe it's cause I think too much.

I've hurt a lot of people back in 2009 cause of my lack of spine and insensitivity. If you're reading this and if I've hurt you before, I'm really really sorry. Just talk to me about it and I promise I'll try my very best to change myself.

There's this one very important person in my life who has been on my mind ever since he stopped talking to me. It's you, G. I'm really sorry for all the things that I've done and for unknowingly leading you on. You were nothing but nice to me and I was such a bitch to you. I'm sorry for hurting your feelings, G. I really am. I really wish we could have a do-over. I'm sorry, pal. I miss you.

love and God bless,
zoe.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

i feel so fat ):

Friday, March 12, 2010

"The large, masterful figure looms over me, watching, laughing, spit collecting in the corners of his wide, hungry mouth as I split myself in two, his shiny boot nudging my hip, his hands creeping where they shouldn't."

I'm scared. I know I shouldn't be, but I am.

"As he kissed his wet lips down my face and neck and then began to shove his hands up under my shirt. I wept. I began to leave my body; I began to inhabit the air and the silence. I wept and struggled so I would not feel."

How does it feel like to forget? To not remember it?

"... I was the mortar, he was the pestle."

Maybe one day, my innocence would be given back to me.
Maybe one day, I would be able to wake up and say, "I'm okay."

Maybe.
One day.

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

yahweh.

WARNING: Super girly post below. Reader's discretion is advised.

Why do you love him?
Well, I guess it's cause he's a really simple-minded person with the ability to brighten up almost everyone's day! I'm serious! The small, simple things he does for people or the stupid, lame jokes that he cracks have the ability to make someone's day. Did I mention he's a really sweet and caring person too? He is almost always there when I need him and he never fails to surprise me, be it intentionally or unintentionally. The best thing is that I am really comfortable with him (I secretly hope he is too) and he just naturally eases every frustration of mine. It's like every single time I'm with him, I feel at ease. All my frustrations just go away and I just want to be with him and only him (: Besides, he a really, REALLY interesting individual who thinks I've got a twisted sense of humor (I DO NOT!).

What makes this relationship so different?
The fact that I do not intend to hide our relationship from others show that I am ready for a relationship and I do want it to work out. I know for sure that this time, things would be different cause I'm prepared to do whatever it takes to make it last. Besides, he's not like the others. He is capable of making mature decisions so I doubt if we would actually get into some major fight for no good reason.

Do you trust him?
I do trust him but not 100% yet. Trust takes time and he doesn't exactly trusts me too.

When did you realize you had feelings for him?
After we hung out a couple of times, I think. It was a pretty random thing actually. Like one second I was talking to him and BAM! I realized I didn't exactly looked at him as just another male friend anymore. Funny, ain't it?

What do u not like about yourself in this relationship?
I dislike the fact that I keep thinking of ways to express my love towards him. I don't like that cause it's so not me. Seriously. If you asked me to write a love note for someone 6 months back, I would've laughed my ass off and told you that it wasn't my thing and that I would only do that if pigs could fly. Well, I guess pigs can actually fly now.

OKAY.
I need to get back to Legal Concepts.

God bless!

love,
zoe.

with one voice we sing hallelujah.
all the earth cry out hallelujah.
with the angels sing hallelujah
Jesus Chris is King.

Glow- Hillsong


boo. my name's zoe lee (: currently studying business economics and finance in NOTTINGham. i'm 21! goin' on the big TWO-TWO :D and i'm from kuching! I think I am pretty normal for a nineteen year old. I fall down a lot, laugh a lot, hide a lot of things from people and all those other things. What about you? 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I didn't get a chance to see you today and yeah, I miss you a lot. Trying hard to not to think about how my life would be like after you graduate. I guess I'd really look forward to the weekends then. Although I would only be seeing you for a few hours during church but it would be well worth it! Just wanted you to know that you're the most awesome guy I've ever loved and I feel so blessed to be called your girlfriend. HONEST! I really feel like such a loser(in a good way) when I'm with you. It's like you're too good for me and I don't even deserve to be with you :\| Anyways, I hope this post makes you go all soft and sappy inside. :D I love you, mr. candyman! Thank you for showering me with all your sweetness and never ending love. God bless! love, zoe (: p/s: Abi, have I ever told you how good of a friend you are? Well, you're an amazing friend and I'm so bloody lucky to have met someone like you. Gosh, even my mom likes you and your mom! LOL. hugs Abi tightly 2:21 AM · Monday, March 22, 2010 stupidity I wrote my 2010 wish list last night and I realized how empty and lifeless my life is. Jumping from one person to another seems like a norm for me now. I find that I get upset over the littlest things in my life (e.g. -look at my tag box and go figure) and I constantly wonder why people in my life are always leaving. Maybe it's just me and my over-worked brain or maybe it's cause I think too much. I've hurt a lot of people back in 2009 cause of my lack of spine and insensitivity. If you're reading this and if I've hurt you before, I'm really really sorry. Just talk to me about it and I promise I'll try my very best to change myself. There's this one very important person in my life who has been on my mind ever since he stopped talking to me. It's you, G. I'm really sorry for all the things that I've done and for unknowingly leading you on. You were nothing but nice to me and I was such a bitch to you. I'm sorry for hurting your feelings, G. I really am. I really wish we could have a do-over. I'm sorry, pal. I miss you. love and God bless, zoe. 11:02 PM · Tuesday, March 16, 2010 i feel so fat ): 1:35 AM · Friday, March 12, 2010 "The large, masterful figure looms over me, watching, laughing, spit collecting in the corners of his wide, hungry mouth as I split myself in two, his shiny boot nudging my hip, his hands creeping where they shouldn't." I'm scared. I know I shouldn't be, but I am. "As he kissed his wet lips down my face and neck and then began to shove his hands up under my shirt. I wept. I began to leave my body; I began to inhabit the air and the silence. I wept and struggled so I would not feel." How does it feel like to forget? To not remember it? "... I was the mortar, he was the pestle." Maybe one day, my innocence would be given back to me. Maybe one day, I would be able to wake up and say, "I'm okay." Maybe. One day. 2:08 AM · Tuesday, March 09, 2010 yahweh. WARNING: Super girly post below. Reader's discretion is advised. Why do you love him? Well, I guess it's cause he's a really simple-minded person with the ability to brighten up almost everyone's day! I'm serious! The small, simple things he does for people or the stupid, lame jokes that he cracks have the ability to make someone's day. Did I mention he's a really sweet and caring person too? He is almost always there when I need him and he never fails to surprise me, be it intentionally or unintentionally. The best thing is that I am really comfortable with him (I secretly hope he is too) and he just naturally eases every frustration of mine. It's like every single time I'm with him, I feel at ease. All my frustrations just go away and I just want to be with him and only him (: Besides, he a really, REALLY interesting individual who thinks I've got a twisted sense of humor (I DO NOT!). What makes this relationship so different? The fact that I do not intend to hide our relationship from others show that I am ready for a relationship and I do want it to work out. I know for sure that this time, things would be different cause I'm prepared to do whatever it takes to make it last. Besides, he's not like the others. He is capable of making mature decisions so I doubt if we would actually get into some major fight for no good reason. Do you trust him? I do trust him but not 100% yet. Trust takes time and he doesn't exactly trusts me too. When did you realize you had feelings for him? After we hung out a couple of times, I think. It was a pretty random thing actually. Like one second I was talking to him and BAM! I realized I didn't exactly looked at him as just another male friend anymore. Funny, ain't it? What do u not like about yourself in this relationship? I dislike the fact that I keep thinking of ways to express my love towards him. I don't like that cause it's so not me. Seriously. If you asked me to write a love note for someone 6 months back, I would've laughed my ass off and told you that it wasn't my thing and that I would only do that if pigs could fly. Well, I guess pigs can actually fly now. OKAY. I need to get back to Legal Concepts. God bless! love, zoe. with one voice we sing hallelujah. all the earth cry out hallelujah. with the angels sing hallelujah Jesus Chris is King. Glow- Hillsong 12:04 AM ·