dare to dream.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

a cup of tea?

I won't deny that I am scared.
Of love, of life.
The mere thought of me letting my guard down scares me.
What if they don't see things the way I do?

WHAT and IF.
Two words that must NEVER be put together

When I hear about people talking about their near death experiences,
I secretly wish that I too had a brush with death.
Maybe that would help me appreciate my life even more.
Maybe some sort of revelation would come upon me,
then I would finally be able to find my purpose in life.
Then I wouldn't be as lost as I am now.
As pathetic and as clueless as I am feeling now.

Maybe.

Sometimes I wonder how it would be like when I am on my death bed.
Would I be filled with remorse and regrets?
Would I be proud of myself and my achievements?
Would there even be people at my funeral?

I believe that we were all brought into this earth for a purpose and I will not rest until I have found and fulfilled that specific purpose that God has set out for me to accomplish.

Only then will I be able to rest, or rather die, in peace.

God bless,
Zoe (:

Thursday, July 15, 2010

I've been reading blogsecret ever since I got into the office this morning.
Yes, this is how superbly depressing my life is :D
My supervisor's not around today so there's no one for me to smile with.

He's actually a pretty charming and nice person once you get to know him better.
Funny guy actually tested me on Bill of Lading, Invoice, Insurance Form, and Certificate of Analysis yesterday.
He practically explained the whole purpose of all those papers that I've been filing since day one.
LOL.

rawr. I've been listening to nothing but slow, sad love songs since the start of the week :/
I'm blaming all these on work blues and the fact that I have to wake up at the unGodly hour of 6 every morning.
It sucks more than waking up for school.

Speaking of schools, I miss my friends )':

Quote/blogsecret of the day:

If there is one person in the world I could marry right now it’d be you ‘cause you’re so fragile. I wanna make sure no one breaks you.

I know I'm sappy :D

Y'all have a great day!

love,
zoe

Monday, July 12, 2010

I'm starting to think that maybe, I really do like you, a lot, more than I intended.
It's more than sexual attraction, more than just skin deep.
It's more intense than anything that I've ever felt before.

Being away from you, yeah it hurts like crazy.
But through the pain, I've learn something extremely valuable.
Patience, forgiveness, trust, faith and most importantly, unconditional love.

I won't say that we would live happily ever after, without any cares or worries.
No. I finally understand that things just don't work that way.
Circumstances would always come between us but it's up to US, you and I, to decide how best to deal with them.
And I believe that with God's help, we would be able to go through all the ups and downs of life together.

I love you and I hope this post would somehow brighten up your day.

endless hugs and kisses,
zoe.

Thursday, July 08, 2010

♥

LOVE.

A word so strong, so powerful, it can bring people together, and tear them apart.
A word once said, can never ever be taken back.

How can you be sure that it is really LOVE, that you feel towards that certain someone and not merely INFATUATION?
How do you know that it IS love?
Have you felt it before?;
Touched it?;
Experienced it?
Honestly, have you?

"I just know it is" is never and will never be a good enough answer.
Love is so much deeper than that.
It is more than just a warm and fuzzy feeling inside, more than that song which reminds you of that special someone.
Love is more than anything your mind can comprehend.
Love is commitment, it is trust, faith in that someone.

So think carefully, contemplate and ponder before you profess your love for another.
Before you devalue the meaning of LOVE.
Before you hurt the other party.

God bless (:
♥

Tuesday, July 06, 2010

mirror.

I stare at the girl in the mirror.
She stares back at me and I start scrutinizing her every move; the ways she looks; her physique.
A little too pale, I say aloud.
And her skin's too translucent.
Hips too wide and curves in all the wrong places.
Hideous eye bags, tired eyes, and a bad sense of fashion, almost none.

I then looked deeper, into her soul, to see who she really is.
She was sad, pathetic some might say, filled with contradictions.
Inner conflicts fill her mind,
Slowly consuming her little by little.
She may look happy and pleased on the outside,
but deep down inside, nothing is alright.

A mask she wears, to conceal the truth.
To protect her secrets from the world.
Things that no one should know.
And no one will ever know.

I'm supposed to be thinking about my 10 strengths. So far I've only found 2.

I am DARING and DETERMINED.

Is those even strengths? :/
I shall think some more before I go to sleep tonight.

Oh, and happy 20th birthday bra-dder Jake Lee.
You're old and you're going to Singapore )'':
You'd better make sure you study your ass off there.
Or else...
I'll tell Santa not to give you any presents d:

Off to do other random things in the office.

God bless!

love,
zoe


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I won't deny that I am scared. Of love, of life. The mere thought of me letting my guard down scares me. What if they don't see things the way I do? WHAT and IF. Two words that must NEVER be put together When I hear about people talking about their near death experiences, I secretly wish that I too had a brush with death. Maybe that would help me appreciate my life even more. Maybe some sort of revelation would come upon me, then I would finally be able to find my purpose in life. Then I wouldn't be as lost as I am now. As pathetic and as clueless as I am feeling now. Maybe. Sometimes I wonder how it would be like when I am on my death bed. Would I be filled with remorse and regrets? Would I be proud of myself and my achievements? Would there even be people at my funeral? I believe that we were all brought into this earth for a purpose and I will not rest until I have found and fulfilled that specific purpose that God has set out for me to accomplish. Only then will I be able to rest, or rather die, in peace. God bless, Zoe (: 10:25 PM · Thursday, July 15, 2010 I've been reading blogsecret ever since I got into the office this morning. Yes, this is how superbly depressing my life is :D My supervisor's not around today so there's no one for me to smile with. He's actually a pretty charming and nice person once you get to know him better. Funny guy actually tested me on Bill of Lading, Invoice, Insurance Form, and Certificate of Analysis yesterday. He practically explained the whole purpose of all those papers that I've been filing since day one. LOL. rawr. I've been listening to nothing but slow, sad love songs since the start of the week :/ I'm blaming all these on work blues and the fact that I have to wake up at the unGodly hour of 6 every morning. It sucks more than waking up for school. Speaking of schools, I miss my friends )': Quote/blogsecret of the day: If there is one person in the world I could marry right now it’d be you ‘cause you’re so fragile. I wanna make sure no one breaks you. I know I'm sappy :D Y'all have a great day! love, zoe 11:29 AM · Monday, July 12, 2010 I'm starting to think that maybe, I really do like you, *a lot, more than I intended. It's more than sexual attraction, more than just skin deep. It's more intense* than anything that I've ever felt before. Being away from you, yeah it hurts like crazy. But through the pain, I've learn something extremely valuable. Patience, forgiveness, trust, faith and most importantly, unconditional love. I won't say that we would live happily ever after, without any cares or worries. No. I finally understand that things just don't work that way. Circumstances would always come between us but it's up to US, you and I, to decide how best to deal with them. And I believe that with God's help, we would be able to go through all the ups and downs of life together. I love you and I hope this post would somehow brighten up your day. endless hugs and kisses, zoe. 5:12 PM · Thursday, July 08, 2010 ♥ LOVE. A word so strong, so powerful, it can bring people together, and tear them apart. A word once said, can never ever be taken back. How can you be sure that it is really LOVE, that you feel towards that certain someone and not merely INFATUATION? How do you know that it IS love? Have you felt it before?; Touched it?; Experienced it? Honestly, have you? "I just know it is" is never and will never be a good enough answer. Love is so much deeper than that. It is more than just a warm and fuzzy feeling inside, more than that song which reminds you of that special someone. Love is more than anything your mind can comprehend. Love is commitment, it is trust, faith in that someone. So think carefully, contemplate and ponder before you profess your *love* for another. Before you devalue the meaning of LOVE. Before you hurt the other party. God bless (: ♥ 5:19 PM · Tuesday, July 06, 2010 mirror. I stare at the girl in the mirror. She stares back at me and I start scrutinizing her every move; the ways she looks; her physique. A little too pale, I say aloud. And her skin's too translucent. Hips too wide and curves in all the wrong places. Hideous eye bags, tired eyes, and a bad sense of fashion, almost none. I then looked deeper, into her soul, to see who she really is. She was sad, pathetic some might say, filled with contradictions. Inner conflicts fill her mind, Slowly consuming her little by little. She may look happy and pleased on the outside, but deep down inside, nothing is alright. A mask she wears, to conceal the truth. To protect her secrets from the world. Things that no one should know. And no one will ever know. I'm supposed to be thinking about my 10 strengths. So far I've only found 2. I am DARING and DETERMINED. Is those even strengths? :/ I shall think some more before I go to sleep tonight. Oh, and happy 20th birthday bra-dder Jake Lee. You're old and you're going to Singapore )'': You'd better make sure you study your ass off there. Or else... I'll tell Santa not to give you any presents d: Off to do other random things in the office. God bless! love, zoe 3:28 PM ·