I used to inflict pain on myself back when I was younger.
I didn't know better then.
I probably haven't got much figured out now either but I've found a different way to deal with things.

I secretly think my family is slowly falling apart from the inside.
During our family dinner earlier tonight, none of my cousins were communicating with one another, each busy with their phones.
We used to be able to talk a whole heap of crap when we meet.
Now everyone's just hostile and shit.
I dislike it a lot. I mean, we're a family, we're supposed to be communicating with one another. Not busy tapping away on our phones.

I want to do something about it.
I am going to do something about it soon.
Things cannot go on like this. It's just not right.

Therein lies the problem: I don't know where to start.

Yesterday, I went over to Ode's place and we had a lovely chat about things.
We finally disposed of the box together, alongside with the memories that were made.
It felt exhilarating and wonderful to be freed from that emotional bondage.
I can't wait for the next phase in life to start.

I just miss being able to hold hands and cuddle with a person. It always makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside, not to mention protected too (: too bad Ode does not feel the same way.

I think I'm a tad bit childish when it comes to relationships.
Hm.

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